accounting

welp, i'm mad at myself about it.

I didn't time manage very well. ergh. i know that im going to be mad with whatever i get, cause i could have done better.

i am so very very screwed for stats. not even funny.

also, i have fallen in love.

a one true love.

a one shoe love.

I know, its terribly Asian, but it's adorable! the 8cm wedge, the black, the possibility for cosplay yet everyday functionality of it... *swoon*

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yesterday i went to rice auditions, to audition little kiddies who want to rice.

Although it was more like me having fun ahahahahha.

i cannot dance for the life of me.

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ok i gotta go back to cramming.

lol jokes what is study?

ITS SO TERRIBLY COLD I HATE WINTER

I hope i don't get sick... :(

well...

It's been forever, hasn't it? What with exam cram and all.

1 exam down, 3 to go.

Micro wasn't so bad. Considering it's the subject I'm fairly sure I won't fail, not so bad is comparatively good. 

I'm just praying I can pass stats.

My mum walked in when I was studying stats and she was like "wow. All this math. And you thought you'd never see math again."

Life is funny like that. 

I mean I was aiming for arts law, so I'd never have to math ever again. 

But I don't regret doing Eco. I think it's better actually. 

lol inner Asian.

When walking from the exam centre I made a discovery. I can walk straight up my street and turn left and walk another and be at the race course, instead of walking all the way to uni and then all the way to the race course. 

It makes the 45min walk only 25min. :D saving time yay! 

I thought the marquees would be dodgier, but they aren't so bad. I hope it doesn't rain... Rain will be crap.

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After micro I slept for like 2hourz, before dragging myself out and heading to work.

While in parra I bought a burrito for a super late lunch, and yogoberry. (I was really hungry)

I think I ate reaaaaaaaaaally fast. I was worried I'd miss my bus and get to work late. 

But the burrito was the best. I love Mexican food. And Japanese food. And Korean food. And Italian food. 

I just love food.

No wonder I'm so fat. 

DIET AFTER EXAMS. FO SHO. 

(I say that all the time, I know, but this time for reals! I'm turning my life around! I want to wear different clothes and not be ashamed of my appearance! Also August is close and cosplay is inevitable. So along with my new study resolutions for next Sem, I intend to have new diet resolutions too! Yay!)

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Lots of rapid development in my life, don't even know where to begin. 

But here's a big one.

MATT SMITH IS LEAVING!!!!!!! *cries*

I will forever miss him.

*sniff* Matt Smith, because of you, now ties have never been cooler, fezzes are not just for Aladdin dress ups, suspenders should be worn at all occasions, and Geronimo is said whenever I leave the door :')

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Also, what is relationships? I don't even understand anymore. 

Maybe I was just born different from every other female. 

But I think I'm severely messed up.

My sister is mad at me because I think I said something apprarently mean but not meant to be mean to someone, and now she thinks I don't love her. Also because she's almost off my best friends list on snapchat AHAHAHA...

Speaking of retarded relationships, I decided I could talk to him again. lol.

Dunno why, I just think it's been long enough, and although I'm always going to be sad about it, I no longer actively wish I could stop myself from saying anything and kept staying in that awkward denial.

I think I'm running from commitment.

I don't think committing is healthy.

But I also think staying as it is is not healthy.

But it feels HELLA good.

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I dunno why manga girls like milk so much. The aftertaste is extremely funny. It sits in your stomach weirdly as well, like you can sorta feel it? Strange. 

But in all manga, cow milk is supposed to enlarge boobies haha. But I'm pretty sure it's a lie.

But then, manga maintains that massaging boobies will make them bigger, so we defs can't trust manga. 

Anyway, this ends my rant. 

Night :3

FINISHED PERDISCO!!!!

HAPPIEST CHAPPIE ALIVE.

83%. What the heck, good enough :D

THANK YOU JIN. AND RL WHO SENT ME ANSWERS, YOU ARE A LIFE SAVER.

And it's only 4am :D

Did quant test in tute today, was freaking out for it but it was actually alright :)

ONTO ECON PRESENTATION!

(I'VE HAD WAY TOO MUCH COFFEE TONIGHT)

I HATE PERDISCO.

I regret leaving this till last minute.

Havan't even had the heart to start stats, cause i don't even know where to begin...

Luckily Jin can help me work out how to use peridisco, or i would be like worse than fail.

Have been to his house far too many times recently, his mum probably dislikes me... ahahaha...

It's always very... intense. doogum doogum.

Uni is more intense, probably because end of sem. ahaha.

I wish i could have gone to med revue. :(

Also, retarded dreams lately. :(

ADVENTURE!

Tomorrow the pop up dr who shop opens! going there bright and early in my matt smith doctor outfit!

Will probably go to uni in it... ahaha...

Or maybe i'll just skip uni and go home to study for econ exam on friday... hrm.

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Enrollment fiasco! Not really sure what's going on.

Oh wait. I have to go to uni to talk about enrollment.

Maybe I'll skip classes and go to uni to talk about enrollement and THEN go home.

YEAAAAAAAAAH

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Yesterday i was super scared because i thought i left my laptop at IGA. Actually, i did leave my laptop at IGA.

BUT LUCKILY MY PERSONAL SUPER HERO WENT AND GRABBED IT FOR ME AND GAVE IT BACK.

Seriously, he does a lot of running for silly reasons. i appreciate it <3

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You gotta love clara right? :D

hggggggggggggggnh.

Walking back while sun setting :)

Last few days...

I bought more stuff at op shop again. $5 patterned dress and $5 chambray shirt :)

The problem with buying regularly at an op-shop is that I now have a desire for EVERYTHING I BUY to be around op-shop prices.

Like i can't buy a nice $50-now-$30 dress without thinking "but i could get a dress from vinnies for less..."

op-shop hazard

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Accounting was terrible.

That's all I have to say.

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Is anyone else extremely confused about the timetables? I'm not sure what I'm supposed to book for next semester. :/

We don't chose the subject's we've already completed right? But you know how accounting is part 1A, does that mean there's a part 1B? I'm very confused.

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Today I saw a bunch of cool baulko people, JL, MS, DL, DM, and we played Saboteur.

Was possibly the coolest break I've had in uni.

Thanks guys :)

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I got snapchat, and it's actually kind of fun :) But i'm still quite addicted to gifboom. My sister saw me use i and said it was like a moving version of instagram without the insane amount of people.

She has lots of followers, she's just too pretty.

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Made kimchi soup for dinner, because it's simply TOO COLD.

Twas actually quite nice, despite roomies's reservations at spicy tolerance, they managed to eat quite alot. :)

Also I did laundry, but the clothes didn't dry on time because it was too cold and now they're hanging on the banisters.
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DOCTOR WHO SHOP OPENING UP SOON OMFG HAVE TO GO ON THURSDAY I HAVE COSTUME ORGANISED YES YES YES.

All i neeed is a fez and i'm good.

I HAVE MY BOW TIE. I MUST WIN.

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Friday was very very weird.

If I were to put it metaphorically, everyone walks around with a tightly sealed box of secrets. And the box has many many many layers. And I feel that most people don't ever touch each others boxes. It's only if people chose to share them. And generally, I think that most people won't ever reach the centre of other people's boxes, the final tightly locked box that holds secrets people don't like to admit to themselves.

My box was accessed.

It was stupid of me, and i think i should have seen it coming earlier, but there's no going back now. The box is open and on display and now i'm not sure how to define the relationship/friendship anymore.

Most relationships have like barriers. A limit to how connected and how much you understand about someone. There are things that, despite all the time and closeness you share with someone, you'll never find out about them unless they choose to share it with you.

There was no choice in this. It just happened.

And I would take it back in a heartbeat, if just to go back to a semi-normal stasis of relationship.

I don't really now how to approach this anymore.

When you know so much about someone, where is the line? The barriers are down and I'm not sure if i feel comfortable being so exposed. It's scary. And I don't know where this is going to lead.

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In CBS today we were talking about what Christian relationships should be (Ephesians 5:22 - 6:9) and it personally made me wonder about Christianity and feminism.

Like i don't think radical feminism and Christianity can harmonize.

Because women are called to 'submit in everything' towards their husband, just as the church is supposed to submit to Christ. And thus we are meant to help them, support them, love them and give ourselves to them.

But then again, men are supposed to love women 'as Christ loved the church.' So 'he might sanctify her, having cleansed her by the washing of water with the word, so that he might present the church to himself in splendor, without spot or wrinkle or any such thing, that she might be holy and without blemish.' 

So it's not meant to be an exploitive relationship. Guys are supposed to lead women, but also to love and protect them, guard them and keep them holy. They wouldn't hurt them or exploit them or abuse them. And women and supposed to follow and support. But they're supposed ultimately make the Christian walk together. 

I think it's actually beautiful.

People consider me somewhat feminist, but really I only think that men and women should be treated equally, with respect and fairness. We have our differences and it's not like men and women are interchangeable  but it also doesn't mean that women are inferior to men.

But i think that you can't be a radical feminist and be Christian.

Maybe an equalist?

aha that just makes me think of avatar.

sorry for the rant >,<

kthnxbai.

Stats exam :0

It wasn't terribly bad, considering that i only revised binomial distribution and taught myself normal distribution the morning before the exam AHAHAHA.

Also, while I was at the house revising before the exam, my Gmarket package came!

Has clothes and hair accessories :D

Haha clear colour choice right?

tbh almost all my wardrobe is red, blue and neutrals. (i.e. brown, black, white, grey)

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DocSoc screening was good! The episode was really good! The ending was a little timey wimey make-it-all work-out ending, but the concept was kind of cool.

Although seriously doctor, if you dont want people to know you're name, don't leave a pretty book on a pedestal  with a spot light WHICH HAS YOUR NAME - WHICH HAS SOME KIND OF SUPER PROBLEM POWER ASSOCIATED WITH IT - IN BIG LETTERS.

-end of rant-

Also i saw this and it was the CUTEST THING EVER :D

ahahahaha.