hello there.

HOLIDAYS!!!!!!!!!!!!~~~~~~~~~~~

Basking in the post-exam happy bubble :D

Not that i think i did very well. but hahaha... i don't care right now.

tea... ho ho ho...

Been going out a fair bit, so lots of photos... naha...

It was my grandma's eightieth birthday on the weekend before my last exam :D

So my aunts came down from Vancouver for the two weeks during my exam period. It was pretty cool, there was so much going out to eat food or eating crazy amounts of awesome food at home because they didn't want to go out.

And I missed out on 3 more outings haha. Cause i had to study T.T

Thursday. Last exam day.

SO HAPPY TO HAVE FINISHED.

Went out to get ramen for dinner in the city at Ippudo with ML and NJ. I think she had just come back from Melbourne! :D

The ramen was super tasty! I really like ramen haha... I think this was like, specialty ramen. It took ramen to the NEXT LEVEL. RAMEN UPGRADED.

The wierd rice thing came with extra nori and ginger to be put in like halfway to "change the flavour of the meal and make it a more refreshing experience." the rice was to be put in after the noodles were finished.

I asked ML what he thought and he was like "it just tastes like more ginger now." haha what a cutie. 

Saw KL in the city when coming back. He was very drunk. First time talking to a drunk person. 

I think it was a rather... enlightening experience. 

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Friday

Did some last minute pack up for my prep to move out. Then watched a couple of episodes of High School of the Dead before I got side tracked. 

I think it was actually pretty scary sometimes. Other than that, boob physics of the show is kinda ridiculous. :D

Day didn't exactly go as hoped the day before, but it still went a little along the way? 

I guess I can't help myself sometimes. 

Towards the end, when i got kinda sleepy and cold and just crawled in bed; i think that was the nicest bit :3

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Saturday 

After work met up with the girls for dinner and dessert at towers! So happy to see everyone again :'D Got all emotional and everything nahaha. 

When I came back home, watched a late night movie with my mum and sister called Blindness (imdb link here)

I think it really made me question what would I do if I was in that situation. I kinda wish i had seen it in year 11 and used it for a related text of something, I dunno what. Maybe human condition. I dunno.

It's really dark though. Super dark. But it has a lighter finish.

I really want to read the book now.

If I was stuck with no sight in the soceity/kingdom of the blind, would i become like the crazy guys? With no morals and live for selfish pleasure at the expense of others? Would I try to oppose injustice, or would I buckle under and ensure I don't create opposition? 

I dunno. It's hard to think.

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Sunday & Today

I really feel its the beginning of the hols. Lazy days that stretch out into nothing. I kinda did laundry today, and going through a wardrobe cleanse. i.e throwing out garbage bags full of clothes in the donation bins :D

Its taking a while to decide what I want to keep and what I want to get rid of.

Just finished reading Jodi Picoult's My Sister's Keeper and Sam Hawksmoor's The Repossession.

My sister's keeper made me cry when i was reading it, and cry again when i was explaining it to my sister...

lol.

But yeah holiday party atmosphere :D

PARTY LIKE THE DOCTOR!!!!!!!

Coolest snap chat drawing ever.

Also I'm totally in love with minions. Minions are 2nd on the list of things i want but can't have. Luckily McDonalds decided I could have a toy one.

It was really weird buying this, cause i kid you not, when the guy came out and realised this tall fat asian girl wanted the happy meal, he kinda just looked bemused and told me to enjoy the toy. :p

I want ALL THE MINION TOYS.

K bai :D

RICE audition video filming!

WOW I thought I posted this on Saturday but it was sitting in my drafts AHAHA... Awks.

I do this alot don't I? 

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Saturday.

So today was pretty cool, trekked up to macQ uni to film the rice youth audition video.

It was actually really fun, getting to know all the other leaders and such :3

"I knew you were trouble when you walked in..."

Haha we had like a 'battle' thing where we had to sing against the dancers and so they kept making stupid dance moves while we were singing and it was just too funny, I almost couldn't sing cause laughing too much... 

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For lunch, the guys wanted to do the 1kg burrito challenge at Mad Mex, which was HILARIOUS to watch. :3 they were totally struggling at the end. 

I had a regular burrito, and it was super filling as it was!

(Should have taken a photo of the inside lol)

But it's quite messy! But very tasty! I have decided I like burritos. nomnomnom.

Also went to get Noggi after, cause ALWAYS room for dessert! Except for the 1kg burrito guys, they were done.

HAHA one of them was like "dude there's a lump over the stomach section of my belly!" 

And he's no kidding as skinny as like a pencil. And he's super tall. And he kept insisting you could feel a bump where his stomach was. Haha.

But Noggi was awesome, because one of the leaders work there and we got 50%off Noggi :D

So nummy! I love the biscotti flavour :3

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I think I am far too addicted to snap chat. If you look at my camera roll, almost ALL of it is snapchat screenshots. It's terrible. And I don't even screenshot everything! Just the funny ones. 

Also, snapchat makes me send stupid/strange/bad photos when I'm bored. Also bad photos when other people are sad.

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Had kimchi soup for dinner :) I love kimchi on cold nights :3

Also stats. Ew. 

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Sunday/Monday

I didn't sleep at all on Sunday. Cramming stats.

But I think my computer hates me.

On Sunday morning, my microsoft excel crashed, and i ended up losing ALL my graphs. Then at like 4am my microsoft word crashed, and blue screen of death, and i lost all 7000 words and graphs i had worked on until then. I actually cried. It was so depressing. 

You know, on windows 8, the blue screen of death has a giant ':(' emoticon? How depressing. I have a blue screen, and you're shoving it in my face. You butts. I am already sad. You don't need to point it out. wow. 

~end rant~

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Monday 

I went to law revue acting block! It was really fun :) WL was there too hehe. Also, I recognised like all the games we played cause Ollie was very much stealing from ms mac. 

I miss HSC Drama class.

Also, Doctor Who Finale!

I kinda don't get the Trensalor thing... no silence... no fall of the doctor. 

makes me wonder if (a) it's cause the true trensalor fall bit hasn't happenned

(b) when he erased himself from all the databases, he changed his future.

Yeah. 

Weird. 

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Fell asleep at Jin's house. I feel bad about it, just a little.

But by my calculations, I slept at like 2 on saturday, and didn't sleep till i got to his place, so like, 8?

that's like, 42 hours? 

yeah.

The sad thing is, that's not even the longest I've been up with no sleep.

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Tuesday

I'M JUST TIRED.

Also, I found that ears can turn very read when embarrassed. 

ehehehehehehehehehehe. :3

Also, IT'S SO COLD. I HATE THE COLD. 

wibbly wobbly timey wimey (picture heavy)

(Didn't publish this yestrday, so tacking today at the bottom aha...)

Also this is very experimental cause I'm using my phone and the updated blogger app that allows photos! So let's see what happens eh? :D

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THURSDAY - Pop up store and Newtown madness.

(8:30am)

Sitting at the bus stop in costume watching the bus go by.

I think I might be late to the opening, which means I woke up early all excitedly and put on costume possibly for no reason. 

Oh well.

As I sit here, I realise I have an itchy spot on my foot. But I'm wearing boots so I can't scratch it.

#firstworldproblems

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(3:00pm)

Ah it was so worth skipping lectures to go :D

The line was really long, and we got there like exactly 5 minutes before the opening. Was hoping to get there earlier, but I wasn't willing to go alone AHAHA...

But it was pretty crazy! The line went like at least 5 meters back from the door when we got there and it didn't stop growing. I swear, the line wa longer after we left than before we got in haha. 

They only allowed a limited number of people inside the store at a time, so we had to wait another like hour and a half before we could go in.

They gave us chocolate TARDIS cake! (It was super tasty too.)

But there were some pretty cool people in line with pretty cool costumes, so it was pretty cool talking to fellow whovians. 

I think the coolest was the weeping angel outfit.

She was pretty freaky. 

I ended up buying two tshirts (one for me and one for a present) and a baker scarf :D

The scarf was the equivalent of two tshirts :( super expensive!

But whatever. #noregrets.

Went exploring with Jin after. Newtown seems to be a hipster paradise. Everything is "antique" or "unique" or "vintage" or "handmade Eco-friendly" or "recycled" or "reimagined"

They have the coolest stuff.

We stumbled into this amazing antiques store which no joke had an entire wall of antique cameras.

They also remade old vintage equipment. Like this old tv turned mirror.

I wish I was filthy rich, because I could buy almost everything in Newtown. 

My entire house would look like it's from the 1940s if I had a choice. 

We also ate Oporto (yummy) and had a sleepy bus ride home :) 

Oh someone rang the doorbell.

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8:00pm

It was the postman with a package. He brought my stockings ehehe.

I think I'm a bit too addicted to snapchat. Also snapchat is not entirely healthy. 

My favourite snaps & amazing drawing abilities (I know screen shotting, haha)

Hehe

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FRIDAY - econ exam and baby sitting

Well, exam was terrible. 

The baby sitting bit was quite fun though :) 

Although I have to say, putting the kids to sleep made me very sleepy too :p even though it was like 8:30 HAHA. 

Looking forward to parties and fun :D 

Goodnight :)

hggggggggggggggnh.

Walking back while sun setting :)

Last few days...

I bought more stuff at op shop again. $5 patterned dress and $5 chambray shirt :)

The problem with buying regularly at an op-shop is that I now have a desire for EVERYTHING I BUY to be around op-shop prices.

Like i can't buy a nice $50-now-$30 dress without thinking "but i could get a dress from vinnies for less..."

op-shop hazard

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Accounting was terrible.

That's all I have to say.

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Is anyone else extremely confused about the timetables? I'm not sure what I'm supposed to book for next semester. :/

We don't chose the subject's we've already completed right? But you know how accounting is part 1A, does that mean there's a part 1B? I'm very confused.

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Today I saw a bunch of cool baulko people, JL, MS, DL, DM, and we played Saboteur.

Was possibly the coolest break I've had in uni.

Thanks guys :)

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I got snapchat, and it's actually kind of fun :) But i'm still quite addicted to gifboom. My sister saw me use i and said it was like a moving version of instagram without the insane amount of people.

She has lots of followers, she's just too pretty.

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Made kimchi soup for dinner, because it's simply TOO COLD.

Twas actually quite nice, despite roomies's reservations at spicy tolerance, they managed to eat quite alot. :)

Also I did laundry, but the clothes didn't dry on time because it was too cold and now they're hanging on the banisters.
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DOCTOR WHO SHOP OPENING UP SOON OMFG HAVE TO GO ON THURSDAY I HAVE COSTUME ORGANISED YES YES YES.

All i neeed is a fez and i'm good.

I HAVE MY BOW TIE. I MUST WIN.

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Friday was very very weird.

If I were to put it metaphorically, everyone walks around with a tightly sealed box of secrets. And the box has many many many layers. And I feel that most people don't ever touch each others boxes. It's only if people chose to share them. And generally, I think that most people won't ever reach the centre of other people's boxes, the final tightly locked box that holds secrets people don't like to admit to themselves.

My box was accessed.

It was stupid of me, and i think i should have seen it coming earlier, but there's no going back now. The box is open and on display and now i'm not sure how to define the relationship/friendship anymore.

Most relationships have like barriers. A limit to how connected and how much you understand about someone. There are things that, despite all the time and closeness you share with someone, you'll never find out about them unless they choose to share it with you.

There was no choice in this. It just happened.

And I would take it back in a heartbeat, if just to go back to a semi-normal stasis of relationship.

I don't really now how to approach this anymore.

When you know so much about someone, where is the line? The barriers are down and I'm not sure if i feel comfortable being so exposed. It's scary. And I don't know where this is going to lead.

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In CBS today we were talking about what Christian relationships should be (Ephesians 5:22 - 6:9) and it personally made me wonder about Christianity and feminism.

Like i don't think radical feminism and Christianity can harmonize.

Because women are called to 'submit in everything' towards their husband, just as the church is supposed to submit to Christ. And thus we are meant to help them, support them, love them and give ourselves to them.

But then again, men are supposed to love women 'as Christ loved the church.' So 'he might sanctify her, having cleansed her by the washing of water with the word, so that he might present the church to himself in splendor, without spot or wrinkle or any such thing, that she might be holy and without blemish.' 

So it's not meant to be an exploitive relationship. Guys are supposed to lead women, but also to love and protect them, guard them and keep them holy. They wouldn't hurt them or exploit them or abuse them. And women and supposed to follow and support. But they're supposed ultimately make the Christian walk together. 

I think it's actually beautiful.

People consider me somewhat feminist, but really I only think that men and women should be treated equally, with respect and fairness. We have our differences and it's not like men and women are interchangeable  but it also doesn't mean that women are inferior to men.

But i think that you can't be a radical feminist and be Christian.

Maybe an equalist?

aha that just makes me think of avatar.

sorry for the rant >,<

kthnxbai.

Connect and Study Cram.

Stats exam tomorrow! Spent like (notevenkidding) 5 hours in Gloria Jeans today cramming for stats before Connect Leaders meeting.

I bought a coffee and a tea, trying to reduce caffeine levels... ahahaha....

not working... lol

I think it was fairly productive... ahaha....

before connect, i went and ate pizza with ML, cause he's doing connect too. What a cool guy.

I'm so unhealthy HAHAHA.

EXAMS TOMORROW OMIGOSH
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I'm concerned im going to fail. ahahahaha.

Im too tired to study anymore... i think i just want to go to bed...

Also cause of the connect train and plan (which brought back baulko iscf memories tbh, haha kenny), i missed the latest ep of doctor who!

So sad.

Though i regret nothing.

I'm going to defs go to docsoc screening tomorrow.

I've put attending on it a couple of times, but i've never actually been, shhhhhhhhhhhhh LOL.

But tomorrow defs going, bringing by newly addicted friend along who has now caught up. (HAHA JIN)

Church was nice today :) We did Ecclesiastes and 1 Corinthians, which is what i'v been doing in my quiet times, so i had that fun "omigosh i know what he's talking about because i'm going over that now and now i understand EVERYTHING" moment ahahaha.

 Also, strangely, conversations in hash tag are kind of fun.

Statistics and Rice.

Today was productive, but i fear for my exam results. ahahahaha.

Went to rice leaders meet up and ate yummy korean food before it.

Really excited about serving :)

Although apparently we have to keep the topics and themes and songs and rehearsal space very hush hush.

I might accidentally slip info here... ahahahahha.

We had free noggi because guy is manager of the branch is also leader of Creative team.

Apparently we need to meet up to film the audition video for recruitment :D Excited and nervous.

When i got back to the house, tabbus was there! pleasant surprise ahaha.

kthnxbai

Catch up (picture heavy)

uwaaaaa past few days have been SUPER BUSY!!!

Tuesday

It was really nice when mh and bt came to UNSW for a visit, i was so happy to see them. It was cool just lying on the grass chilling in the sun eating wedges ahaha

Also RL so cute, being so excited and all to take photos in the glass hallway hahahaha :3

Ah i love girls, friends who are girls are the greatest (L)

no offence to male friends, because you're important too. I don't have enough friends, i can't loose my male ones ahaha....


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Wednesday

Baby sitting from 8-3 :)

It was actually really fun, even if i was SUPER TIRED from staying up late studying... ahahaha.

We made a sword and shield out of the strange lego connect and he was SO HAPPY with it, he kept running around and didn't want to put it down to eat lunch.

So to make him eat, we had a picnic in the back yard and pretended he was a king and went on adventures, defeating dragons and finding dinosaurs and magical plants that heal kingdoms and give them food that makes bread fall from the sky and meet fairies and catch 'baddies' ahaha

Little kids imagine playtime is so cute.

Stairs become mountains and cubby houses become castles and stepping stones become raging rivers with crocodiles and backyards are forests and garages are caves...

(I also made glasses with the lego connect thing, but it's not as cool as the sword and shield i fashioned.)

After work i went to Artarmon vinnies, which was closing down... seriously why are all the vinnies closing down? it's so sad! I bought a cotton on brown skater skirt for $4, a cotton on orange blouse for $3, a black kind of overall type dress for $6, and ripped pattern black stockings for $2... ehehehe. 

Good bargains :D

No photos cause i cbb LOL.

Also went to Chatswood and bought instant noodles (again)

This time i bought tonkatsu instant ramen! 

Also, whilst in chatswood, i bought milk pudding :)

I frickin love this stuff, it's like custard but not, and awesome. :D

Even my house mate who's lactose intolerant had a bit and wanted more AHAHAHA

Also bought jammy dodgers and tea, because that stuff is addictive. 

If just because they were in Doctor Who. :D

Also had a talk about alter egos. What would your personality be like if you were the opposite gender?

It was actually pretty interesting setting up what i would chose to be like as a male... ahahaha.

I kind of imagined a slightly more responsible luffy. :p

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Thursday

Basically crashed at jin's the ENTIRE DAY. I feel bad for his parents, they're super nice...

It was REALLY FUN, but not very productive, even though i went over to study, because all i did was tease him AHAHAHAHA.

But really, he's so adorable, what am i supposed to do? :3 

Adorable people are meant to be teased. Sorry bro >.<

BUT IF YOU WEREN'T SO CUTE I WOULD HATE YOU.

lol jokes jokes, i wouldn't. but it wouldn't be the same. :(

Also watched that surgeon simulation game review online, and couldn't stop laughing for AGES.

I seriously hope that that's not medical procedures... 

We ate the tonkatsu ramen whilst there, cause i brought it over... IT TASTED AWESOME. 

Also, because it was so cold (i didn't expect to stay so long, it just kind of... happenned... ahaha) I stole his onesie. And he's probably never getting it back. Unless i get another onesie. 

It's a cow.

Aha.

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Friday

Today was mostly just cramming for work (like always ahahahahaha)

Made the decision to go for Rice leadership. I wonder if i'll regret it... aha.

but after class studied for a bit then went to yogiberry!

The yogiberrybunny took an instant liking to Jin. It's cause he's adorable. AHAHAHAHA.

50% off! Last day! Big bowl of yogiberry for only $6!!!

You jelly bro? Froyo bro! ahahahahaha

Ended up at Jin's house again... it's far too conveniently close to uni to NOT end up there, i think. 

okies im tiredskies :)

Night!

deep end

I tried to start my stats assignment today, but I had no idea what I was supposed to even begin with.

You know you are going to do badly when you dont even know what the question is asking.

I was all "yeah, tote going to get on top of my assignments, i can totes do this!"

and then i realised i had NO CLUE what i was doing.

I think i need to dedicate my ANZAC holiday completely to stats.

Until then, accounting cram aha...

(Alysha, shame on you, stats in tute exam is next week monday. you're going to have a bad time)

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How AMAZEBALLS was Doctor Who ep this week? fuar i loved hide!

Best Ghost Love story every. ^^

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I've always thought that Panty and Stocking were a messed up adults version of the Powerpuff girls, and apparently someone else did too, because i found this cross over illustration.

Haha. Can you see Johnny Bravo is the male on the cover of Panty's magazine?


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Recently, a church friend has been very encouraging. I'm surprised, because since this year I've talked to him like maybe 4 times in total. (?) His love and passion for God is very inspiring. I hope I can be that enthusiastic in everything i do as well. He's actually kind of amazing. I would never tell him that though.

My sister was somewhat fan-girling him the other day, telling me about his story and how he came to faith in Jesus.

I can somewhat understand his passion after that.

I find that, in some areas of my life, there are people that i talk to that just make me feel motivated to do certain things. Talking to my cousin makes me motivated to learn Japanese and Chinese and Latin and French and Spanish and every other language in the world, talking to my sister motivates me to be a more caring and compassionate person, reading some people's blogs make me feel i need to work harder or be more creative, and talking to others make me feel like i want to be more of a lamp post for christ.

I feel very blessed to know so many amazing people :)

I have to work harder, haha.

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(Long Christian passage, sorry atheists. But I hope you read it anyway, because this is important to me.)

I was asked to help lead Rice choir, and I feel that's somewhat a scary thing.

Because for me to lead something this big, it's a very big deal.

Not only because I know it'll be amazingly fun, I'm worried that i won't do it for the right reasons.

What if i just sing because i want to perform? But it's not a performance, it's about praise.

And i don't know if i can lead something one hundred percent thinking about praise.

And im not even including the extra work shifts and Connect leadership and INSANE STUDY.

But it's been in my mind, exciting my core, every minute since I was asked.

I remember at KYCK, whilst in the mosh pit singing praises, I felt that it was the most amazing experience, being able to sing.

And it felt amazing, because usually when i sing i care so much about how i sound, and i concentrate on every little thing.

But at that moment, when i swear i couldn't hear my voice in the massive crowd that were all jumping and singing praises, i didn't care what i sounded like.

And i knew that i wasn't singing like i normally do, because at that moment i was singing praise with all my heart. I felt moved. It felt spiritual.

Like I was doing something that was unlocked inside me, like i had found something that i had never found before.

I felt drained after the song, even though i knew no one could hear me in the crowd, I swear that I had just done THE MOST amazing performance of my life.

It was intoxicating.

People at my church call it one of my spiritual gifts, a gift i should be using for God. A voice that only unleashes when i sing praises.

And I know that in 1 Peter 4:10-11, it says:

¹⁰ Each of you should use whatever gift you have received to serve others, as faithful stewards of God’s grace in its various forms. ¹¹ If anyone speaks, they should do so as one who speaks the very words of God. If anyone serves, they should do so with the strength God provides, so that in all things God may be praised through Jesus Christ. To him be the glory and the power for ever and ever. Amen.

Every gift we have should be used to its fullest in him, for him

Yet to me, my gift is something that i feel i can get swept up in self-adulation with.

I know that my voice is something I am proud of. It's always been that way. Music is something i strongly connect to, and applause is something ive become addicted to since 6years old.

So something like singing at Rice, with thousand of youth in a concert hall, leading a choir and singing on a stage?

The very idea makes me quiver with excitement.

But im not sure if it's because i want to sing praises with thousands of people, and whip them up into that blissful state where you feel as if God is there with you, or if i want to sing in front of thousands of people to let them hear my voice.

Terrifying.

Ironically, I have terrible stage fright as well.

But that's irrelevent at Christian performances for me.

I suppose i never really care what the service thinks about my playing ability, because I'm trying to make the best worship experience for them through it.

Ultimately it's all for God, so who knows really...

I suppose if I pray about it, an answer will come eventually.

kthnxbai <3

Historical :O

TODAY WAS SO MUCH FUN!

Ah i realise girls are awesome :3 I love females the most, guys are stupid and boring. It's so fun with female friends... *cries* i need to make new friends at uni....

Went out today with MH and BT and it was so much fun!

omg transport (kenso to city) was terrible, i had to wait FOREVER for the bus and then when i got on i realised why. Terrible traffic in the area. I swear I didn't move off one street for 15minutes. It took so long my candy crush hearts reloaded.

Ate ramen :3 Wanted ramen for a while, but i feel that, although it's totally normal to get a coffee by yourself (if you have your laptop so you can cram that last minute tute hw), getting food by yourself is just a little lonely...

(i forgot to take a photo, i was too hungry haha.)

Went to cafe after lunch, my sweet memory haha. the shop is so cute!

I was highly tempted by the GIANT CAKES but i didn't get a giant cake.

We stayed in the cafe, just talking, for AGES. It was the best :3

and we got some poor girl nearby to take polariod(s) for us :D

After, the girls took me to Haymarket Supre, which is actually not like all the other supres (somewhat)

It's much bigger and MUCH CHEAPER.

Like $2.50 for a top.

And - this is the amazing bit - I BOUGHT A CROP TOP.

I NEVER THOUGHT I WOULD EVER EVER WEAR ONE.

BUT I ACTUALLY BOUGHT ONE.

Also a galaxy skirt, which im really happy about because i've always loved the idea of galaxy print bought always found galaxy print tights to be too intimidating haha.

There are like BILLIONS of amazing galaxy type products on Etsy that I've always wanted to buy, but don't have the money for :/

Oh Etsy. If only i was richer...

Went back to the house and flipped out when i met this (not so) little guy

As my housemate so accurately put it, "i have no problem with nature. I just have a problem when it comes indoors."

haha.

kthnxbai

KYCK day 2

Today was pretty fun.

Writing warm and fuzzies, playing youth games, singing songs and watching dr who during breaks :)

Guardian Angel was terrible... My original plan of leaving prepared cup noodles, knocking on door and running went perfectly, but my second plan of action stuffed up and the person found out who I was :(

I think I'm the only one who's been caught so far haha..

But I wanted to show love so I worked hard. No regrets.

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I was really convicted by the talk tonight, about loving everyone like Christ loved us

"For God showed us how much he lived us in this: that whilst we were still sinners, Christ died for us."

We are called to love like Jesus loved us, to love others with our life on the line.

To love purely, and to love completely.

And not to love just when it is convenient, or when we have the time and resources to love others, but whenever the situation arises.

For if we follow the God of Love, we must love as he loved us.

I find it very difficult to love people wholly, with an open mind. To great them with respect ad love and concern. Too encourage them and to share the gospel with them, for that is he greatest love we can do.

Because I hate people. I have like no faith in humanity, because I believe that we're corrupt and sinful. And I find it amazing that a God so perfect could love something as dirty and immoral and sinful me, let alone suffer pain and separation and death for my sake. It's a crazy love that I find hard to apply to my own heart.

But I suppose I must try. For only God can watch over me :)

KYCK - Night 1

Using my phone to blog feels strange. But I didn't bring my laptop to camp so I suppose I have to.

Economics exam wasn't too bad... Though it wasn't the first time I've ever sat an exam I didn't feel completely prepared for, it was the first time that my hand was shaking as I answered the question.

Though that could have been for other reasons...

What was an awks part of the day, a guy from BSOC cruise that I danced with on the night thinking if never see him again is in my tute. I swear I had never seen him before, because I usually sit with friends... But because it was an exam we got mixed around.

Guess where the tutor made me sit?

Haha.

I really really really hope he didn't recognise me.

I look different with make up on but not that different.

I must make sure I ALWAYS wear glasses to that econ tute, in an attempt to look different.

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KYCK talk was amazing :D

It really made me think so much.

(Sorry to all the non-Christians out there, but ima gonna talk about it :3)

Our God is the God of love, who can love perfectly with pure and perfect intention. And to receive his perfect love, all we have to do is confess our sins. If we claim we have no sin, we are denying God and his reason for sending Christ.

But we don't confess our sins completely. We make excuses. Even when we apologise, we attempt to justify WHY we did that action. We don't confess our sins and admit to our wrong doings.

Intense. The talk made me think about what Christian belief is truly about :)

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In my cabin, it's cute to hear the girls talking about school life. And boys and girls and relationships and stuff :) so cute

I'm getting tired...

kthnxbai

Holidays

Hello! I haven't been here for a while haha... I know, this isnt very regular at all. But I've been doing a lot :p

Anyway, I hope you guys have been spending your holidays well! Mine's mostly been jam packed with work and my new found obsession with gaming haha...

I got a new computer! It's a desktop, since I wanted one anyway, and it was cheap. The laptop I want come out in January so I'm going to save up until then :3

I finished at the full time place! Kinda sad, but I was only there as a casual contract :p I'm working at a tutoring centre and babysitting now :p also when the new school term starts I'll be teaching musicianship :p

I havent gone out that much this holidays though :( I probably should go out more. This week I want to go out everyday :D so Monday was connect (which is this just-out-of-high-school Christian group) which was actually was pretty fun, went out for dinner and froyo after haha.

Erm tuesday was LL 18th, where much funz were had which spontaneous beatboxing and dancing and Partying in the USA hahaha. Ngawww NC so cute >.< then games till 3:30am Hahahaha I'm not addict I swear :p

Today was really really fun :) went City with church people who all harassed me about JJ lelele. We played pool and I'm really bad at it >.< I can't hit straight, I always 'jump' the ball lol. Though apparently jumping the ball is like super pro. Haha. But I found it really fun :D should go again next time.

Kareoke was the BEST. I've only been K three times, and I know I love it haha... But I guess I'm not surprised by that :p

Omg I was so tired that I fell asleep on the train home and missed my stop so I had to get off at Cheltenham and I was like "omg how to get to other side of the station?????" and then I saw their was a bridge so I walked the length of the platform and there were no stairs! So I was really confused. Then I stalked this woman who was leaving the platform and realised you had to go out, around the corner, then the stairs were there, and then go around again. And I was like "oooooooh" lol.

It took me like 10 minutes to work it out Hahahaha... So sad.

I'm steadily going broke. I need to babysit again, to get some more cash. The kids I usually take care of left for hong long for two weeks. But they just got back, so I should be working on Monday :D yayyayayayyay work.

Oh on last Saturday, I had a work party at this Korean restraint called Gangnam haha.

I've been practicing really hard for the Christmas Eve Orchestra concert at my church :) piano none stop. Rehersals at my church go from 12:45 to 4 :o super long and tiring haha. :p but it'll be worth it ^^

One thing I like about orchestra is that everyone sounds so pretty together, and every instrument has an important part. Flutes/violins carry soprano, sax/clarinet/violin play alto, and Tenor sax/piano/cello play bass. And the drums/guitar on rhythm. It's fun being on piano in Orchestra because it's very easy and you get no where near as tired as everyone else because all you have to do is move your hands haha. And pedal. Also, you get to improvise a lot, and choose what you want to play, because there usually are parts missing because no one plays tuba or euphonium, so you can play those parts as well :D also you don't get yelled at as much HAHAHAHHA. Or maybe that's just me haha.

Sorry for the somewhat rant :p

Walking home right now, someone is using a sprinkler in their garden, and it smells so nice. Petrichor! Yay for Dr Who!

I AM SO EXCITED FOR THE CHRISTMAS SPECIAL GUYS! EVIL ZOMBIE SNOWMEN YARGGH!

If you ever want to play games with me, just Skype/steam/Facebook me, I'll 80% be online and willing to play haha.

byeeeeeeeeeeeeee guys

Iced Coffee, and The Hulk.

I'm feeling the sad, sad truth about living with my parents.

I will never be able to have the perfect cup of coffee at home.

Reading all these coffee-lover blog posts, I realise (and I knew this before) I can't get a good coffee without a machine. It just doesn't work.

What I really need to try is the perfect ice coffee recipe.

Did you know there are two main ways of making ice coffee? Cold brew verses hot brew.

The hot brew (and more common) version is to simply brew normal hot coffee, let it cool, and then pour it over ice.

Cold brew is where you take cold water and soak the coffee powder in it, then slowly drain the coffee water away from the dregs, the refridgerate. It's a long process but it makes (supposedly) the best ice coffee.


I really really really want to try this, but there's no way its achievable with my family.

We don't have the fridge space lol. Also, my mum hates coffee.

Also, it turns out it's not just me who likes to use condensed milk in home made coffees. I managed to get coffee powder (not the instant stuff, the good stuff) by myself, but it's just not the same as freshly ground and brewed.

It's lacking that depth.

I really really really need to get a machine.

I told my mum when I move out I'm getting a coffee machine, and she gave her usual "coffee is evil - do you want to look like your 65 when your only 40?" rant, and i told i her don't care, i like coffee.

Then she told me she'll come over to my house and destroy my machines.

I nearly cried.

Not really. But I would if I had them and she did destroy it. Do you know how expensive coffee machines are? But I guess they would save you money if you bought coffee everyday. That's like $42 a week.

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My brother is surprisingly aggressive now. It has increased considerably over such a short period of time. Before, when he was angry he'd just throw glares at you. Now, he'll actually come up and try and hit me. Maybe it's cause he's started to take kung fu, but it actually hurts a bit when the punches land.

I dunno. Maybe it's puberty.

He told me I should learn Kung Fu so I can defend myself in case he gets angry and looses it. I told him just to control himself and I wouldn't have to worry about it.

Kinda sounds like a conversation with the Hulk or something.

haha.

Did you have any drastic emotional changes when you went through puberty? I remember I cried all the time, for absolutely no reason. Once I cried when my mum said we were having dessert, and I didn't know why. She will never let me forget that.

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 I saw this on the internet, and I laughed so hard. It would be such a brilliant compliment in real life, but it'd be super bad to write it on a facebook photo post.

Can you imagine? It'd be kinda like... bad

oh the chaos.

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Nano! I'm so excited. I was talking to my mum's friend who is an editor/column writer/Josh's english tutor and told her I was doing nano and she was like COOOOOL! And I was like I know! And then she was like "Is it for school?" and i was like "no, just wanted to do it." and she was like "ok. *weird face* You're doing it with friends though?" And I was like "yup"

So guys, you need to nano with me, and we can word battle and such. It will be fun! :D

Also I don't have any nano friends on my author profile, which is sad lol.

Probably because i don't know how to add anyone. :p

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Anyway, here's a meme.

I just realised, my blog is quite image heavy. I apologise for those slow internets out there.

bye guys!

op-shopping :)

So today we went up to Kensington to buy stuff for my mum (house stuff) and i went all drooly over the various baking equipment they had there.

One of the suprisingly quite few reasons i want to move out is the excitement at having my own kitchen to bake in and cook in and fill with fabulous cooking utensils that will allow me to make fabulous non-asian foods ie european, namely french. Although i will definately own a wok and a rice-cooker lol.

The only reasons i want to move out is no limit to what time i can come home, travel times thus less transport fees and more space cos no joke my room is a matchbox. though the lists of why i don't want to move out is limited to two reasons: Can't afford it and (sometimes) can't be bothered. Or even i think i'll get lonely.

But back to my dream kitchen.

I know it's rather feminine and stereotypical and most things I'm against but the fact remains that the first thing any woman assesses when she takes a sticky beak around someone's house is how nice the kitchen is. Doesn't matter how big the house is, or how nice it is. Even if the place looks like a dump, if you've got a large kitchen with marbled benchtops, stove, massive oven, large fridge and freezer and large pantry, the price of your house will go up considerably. Not to mention I will be drooling.

If you're wondering about the marble benchtops, it's because you can do anything to marble and it won't stuff it. As long as you keep it clean, you can even eat on it. It makes a perfect cutting board and rolling board for pastries and doughs, my main reason for the desire for marble. Just imagine, not having to worry about your tarte pastry going off your cutting board because the whole table is a frickin cutting board :3 Ah the pastries you can make!  the cookies! the breads! even your own pasta/noodles! yes the marvels of marble.

dat drool-worthy kitchen. Two ovens! The luxury!

Quite frankly, after November the 2nd perhaps a lot of what will be going up are is a document of my cooking adventures. I am really excited about working with french foods :) probably following this cooking blog does not help. She wants me to go back to france and move to Bordeaux and marry some french guy and have french children and grow up near a fruit farm and take the kids to pick champignons and make gateaux and Escargots à la Bordelaise every day. damn.

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Anyway, back to the shopping. Since we were in Kensington, my mum and dad wanted to go visit UNSW, since that's where they studied (commerce and med) and met. (cue the ngawwwwwwwws.)

And when we drove in my dad was like "where did all the new buildings come from???" and my mum was like "well it has been 20 years..."

Then we drove around campus for a bit and they pointed stuff out eg "look its the roundhouse! Alysha, as an arts student that where you'll be all the time, bumming around and being useless."

And then my dad turned a corner and was disappointed. He told us "there used to be a wall here with plants. When i was your age your yehyeh (grandpa) took me around UNSW to reminisce too (he did civil engineering). And at this spot, your mama (grandma) got out of the car and stole some plants and then we went home."

And i just cracked up.

 hehe.

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Anyway, so we went walking around after that to find lunch and after lunch we passed a st vinnies where i saw this

eccly!!!!

 

And i kinda went ballastic, went straight in, picked it up and then opened it.

And it was bigger on the inside.

you will notice my ukulele in the corner. ignore that, when i got home i photographed it on my extremely messy table.

At any rate LOOK AT MY SEXY BOX SET IT EVEN COMES WITH SPECIAL FEATURES AND DOCTOR WHO CONFIDENTIAL!!!!

Also we can now watch it with subtitles. My mum can finially understand what they're saying; sometimes they speak too fast and then she has no idea what's going on :3

Also, it was SO CHEAP ON $11, arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh i'm so happy :3

Also got a portsmans check skirt $15, a red wool sweater $8 and eldest (eragon series) for $4. (only had brisingr, missing eragon and inheritence) :D

Also, got a formal dress. $45. SCORE!

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Also, today my church handed me my HSC pack, which is a clear pencil case full of lollies and a little booklet thing with messages for us :) And everyone's is personalised as well . :3 so nice of them :D

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I decided to do AND FINISH NaNoWriMo this year :) I've even got an idea from a weird dream i had. So I made an account and everything :) Hopefully this yead i can do it :D

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Anyway, i really ought to be working, but i'm not. So i shall.

Bye!

Awks...

So the other day (sunday) i was walking in Eastwood with my mother and this girl smiled at me so naturally i smiled back.

And then she was like "Alysha?" and i was like "yeah :)"

And then she was like "OMG" and ran forward and gave me a hug.

And then i started panicking.

I actually have an incredibly horribly terribly bad memory, especially with people's name. Tbh I sometimes forget the new guys who came in year 11. And when i say new guys i actually mean the guys, because i  met all the girls properly and became somewhat friendly.

Basically i don't remember anyone's name unless they make a really big impression on me. Really really big. Or if i meet them alot. like all the time. And they mention their name all the time. lol.

So basically school is really good for learning names. I'm going to be awful in uni.

So back to the story

Anyway, while i was hugging her i was frantically trying to recall who the hell she was and where on earth i met her before. Then she pulled away and i looked at her face again and i STILL HAD NO IDEA WHO SHE WAS.

And then the conversation turned toward the usual niceties; how's hsc, studying, timetable, etc etc etc... And the whole time i was looking at her face trying to figure out where i had met her.

And then she asked me "how's church?" and then i was like oh ok she must be someone from a christian thing i've done.

And then i realised that didn't narrow anything down at all because pretty much all the people i know oustide of school were from christian things... lol.
 
So then she said bye, and then i said bye and waved as she ran off to goodness knows where back home.

And then my mum looked at me and was like "you have no idea who she is don't you?"

and i was like "how did you know?"

And she just smiled and walked off.

AND I STILL HAVE NO IDEA WHO SHE IS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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I want to be a part of a musical after hsc. I don't care how. I don't care what. I don't care where.

I just want to be part of a musical.

MUSICALS ARE AWESOME :)

Going once, going twice...

Lots of things have happened recently, but I haven't written much for a while...

It was UNSW open day last saturday. Was really quite good, I got to play quidditch! :D I was a chaser, it was kinda cool. We played against the uni team and we tied, 30 each, by the end of the game. We didn't score any points though. (the snitch is only worth 30 points in this game haha, to prevent unfair advantages for catching the snitch.)

UNSW was really tiring, actually. Having to walk up and down all those stairs... :p

But it was fun :) maybe I will seriously consider it for a uni, I dunno.

Sunday was my dad's birthday dinner night. We went for Korean BBQ buffet. I felt slightly ill afterwards... Ended up eating way too much lolololol. But it was really nice :)

Also, we had art show and HSC drama night on monday and Tuesday respectively. It was cool.

Also, I was sold for PA auctions today... Although I only went for $75, collectively our prefect group broke the $3000 mark :D double what we originally aimed for. :) it was awesome.

Also, i had amazing sugar cane juice and milk pudding today :)

Hoping that tomorrow i won't be made to do too many horrible stuff... Haha.