Showing posts with label english. Show all posts
Showing posts with label english. Show all posts

Wednesday, April 3, 2013

Time...

When I tell people I don't know where all my time goes, I'm lying.

I know exactly where all my time goes.

I'm sleeping it all away.

I think I'm sleeping like 12 hours a day...

Go to sleep at 12 and wake up at 12...

Ok maybe that's an exaggeration. More like sleep at 1 and wake at 11.

Still, that's like 10 hours.

Hunting the supposedly elusive z's. I think I get too much of them :p



Even though time isn't linear and it's actually like a big ball of times wimey stuff, and although skipping the night to go straight to breakfast would be awesome, waiting slowly for time is nice I suppose.

Time is supposed to heal you.

Like my stupid ankle.

And other things.

I read the letter without crying for the first time today.

I read it about once a week...

Even though I moved out, I still took the letters with me. I didn't want my family to read it an I didn't want to throw them... They're too special.

Am I silly?

Maybe.

I heard sw is sick, which makes me concerned, because he barely gets sick cause of his massive germaphobe ways...

JC and JM are having a party tonight and I'm not sure whether I should go, firstly because of my ankle and secondly because he was invited too.

I half want to go and half don't want to go because of that...

...

On the train back to parramatta, and I'm excited to go to work.

I like tutoring English. I like it when they start to like their essay and get excited to do it. Is that silly? I love English so maybe that's why. I feel sad when they don't send me essays...

Is this what the English teachers feel?

...

This is very rambly, I apologise.

...

I HATE USING CRUTCHES. I HATE IT. THEY'RE SO INCONVENIENT IT'S NOT EVEN FUNNY. IT MAKES ME MAD.

Hence caps lock.

Also it's really hard to use when the ground is wet (rain) cause it makes the slip everywhere. So annoying.

...

I hope he doesn't read this... He probably won't.

...

Trains always make me sleepy. I dunno why. Probably cause it's quiet and you can't do much on a train. Especially if you're alone. I will like 99% of the time fall asleep on a train. And then like 10% have an issue with which stop I get off at because of that :p

...

How's your mid sem break going? I hope you're being productive! :3

:)

Have some who.


Wednesday, December 19, 2012

English tutoring

 Soooooooooooooooooo how'd you guys find your HSC marks? AHEM SHELLEY SHE JUST SAYING WTHECK HOW CAN YOU BE SO SMART AND BEAUTIFUL AND BEASTLY TAKING OUT STATE RANKS EVERYWHERE. (plz have my babies. Then they will be smart and beautiful and incredibly imaginary, because that's not possible, sadly. Which you would know because you state ranked bio. In which case, I'm sad because I love gurl, cos you are amazballs. And James is now feeling threatened.)

I find it freaky, because after putting my marks into an ATAR calculator, it told me I would get 92.1. And I dreamt I got 92. :O

I HAVE FUTURE PREDICTING QUALITIES!!!!

(in b4 I get 91 tomorrow hahaha)

Haha actually after I got my marks I went and changed my preferences to more realistic goals. So sad lol.

I don't think I can sleep tonight. So tense for ATAR. I could barely sleep last night. Luckily no work tomorrow ^.^

I was so tired today I bought a coffee from the local cafe during lunch whilst tutoring. Haha actually I slept for like 4 hours, and I felt more awake today than I did yesterday, when I slept for like 10. Mysteries of life.

So I've been tutoring this year 6 kid for selective. (his mum runs the Pre-uni I work at, so she asked me to tutor her kid) I'm his specific English tutor. She asks other tutors to teach math and GA depending on their skills :p I was kinda happy because he wanted his mum to make me his permanent everything tutor haha. :D he likes me! Yayayayayayay. Even though I'm strict, I guess he laughs a lot, so that's ok.

A deal we made is that when he writes a short story with stimulus, I have to write one too. I don't mind, because we have very different ideas and writing styles, so he can learn from mine.

But today I actually really liked what I wrote, so with some extra polishing and a bit more writing (they only get 20 minutes to write their short story! It's so fast! I struggle to complete anything because I'm used to double the time haha... Stupid HSC)

The stimulus I gave him was a picture of an old wooden box with gold lettering that read "do not open." I told him that the character disobeys and he has to write about what happens. He was pretty excited haha.

He writes well, with great ideas. But his writing is a bit basic and lacks good grammatical structure. I helped him structure his writing better already, so now it has a clear plot line. But now I need to help him be above acceptable. He needs to be brilliant >:3 (haha alysha's annoying English perfectionist streak returns! Although English is the only thing i did well in, apart from legal, so makes sense I guess.)

Anyway his mum has noted clear improvement, so she wants me to come more haha. On boxing day! Right after Christmas! As the day after! Shes kinda sad I'm going overseas for 3 weeks, because I can't work with him haha. But I'm so excited! Yayayayayayay overseas!

I'm ranting.

Anyway you don't have to read the next part, because I've probably lost ability to write over the non-HSC-period. Though I did nano. But that wasn't very good. I suppose this isn't very good either... More writing may come up, seeing as I have to write every time he does haha...

Alysha rant writing Yayayayayayay! Or not... haha :3

---

Humans can never obey orders.

It's in our nature.

We can't help it.

A part of us wants to rebel. To break free of obligations and rules. To go wherever we want. To do whatever we want. Regardless of what other people say.

A park bench is infinitely more interesting when it is labelled 'wet paint.' You always have a compulsive desire to touch it, confirm that it is, indeed, wet paint, and that you should, indeed, not touch it.

People always want to do the opposite of what they are told.

So when a mysterious package that was simply labelled 'do not open' appeared on the doorstep of young Sally Nightingale, what else was she to do?

Naturally, she was fulled with an immediate and pressing need to open the box and discover it's contents.

However, this was a difficult task. The box was fairly small, but it was a heavy box of beaten metal that shone with a dull silver light. There was a lid and a hinge, but no latch.

Sally had a frustrating time trying to open it. There didn't appear to be a seal, yet the box remained firmly shut. There were no buttons on it's side, and even after shaking it, the box did not budge.

Just when she began to lose hope and start feeling depressed, the lid made a small clicking noise. It had opened by itself. (Perhaps the box was sentient.)

The object that was hidden inside was odd.

Her initial reaction was one of awe. Her second was deep concern, and her third was downright fear.

The small peak inside that Sally exposed herself to when the box opened slightly, enough for the lid to be ajar, was a vision of light. A warm, yellow light that seemed to hum with with energy and reminded her of sunlight breaking through clouds after a storm.

With a trembling hand, Sally raised the lid a centimetre higher.

Instantly, she was hit with a giddy sensation of ecstasy. It reminded her of her 4th birthday, the last birthday her entire family was together, the day at the beach when she was 16 and carefree, her first kiss in the pouring rain with a guy she thought she was destined to be with, and numerous days where she could sit back and just sleep, all rolled into one second of feeling.

She collapsed, her chest heaving, gasping for air. The pure emotions swirling inside her, powerful shots of memories, mixed with warm bubbles of joy. It shot through her brain like champagne, and left her feeling warm and happy.

She wasn't quite sure what is the box, but she knew it was something strong. Amazingly strong, bringing her memories out like that.

And then she stopped, concerned. What if it was some kind of wonderdrug, trying to capture a new victim that would pay excessive amounts for their next hit?

If it was a drug, she had a responsibility to hand the box to the police.

She swallowed her concern and pushed open the lid all the way.

It felt as if she was floating on cold fire. Head thrown back, she shrieked with joy and the rush she was experiencing, the pure exhilaration.

And then the lid snapped shut, and she lay on the ground, breathless with fear and wonder.

The box seemed to be full of something strange. An energy source? A drug?

She wondered how it came to her.

But what it was, she was certain of it.

Inside the box, was pure happiness.

---



Monday, May 21, 2012

School today was cool.

Double free today. Studied English in the grass. I think there's nothing nicer than just sitting in the grass and reading, feeling the sun and the breeze. The sun is so nice. I guess vitamin D is good for you after all, so it's all right. As long I don't burn. I burn quite easily.

I like the smell of grass. Grass smells nice. Especially grass that's been slightly crushed from my elbow as I lean on it. Although commenting on the nice smell of grass makes me think of Tangled when Rapunzel when she gets out of her tower for the first time.

"just smell the grass, the dirt, just liked I dreamed they'd be..."

I love disney :D

I really am happy we only have to do two speeches for essay. Now I can do Atwood and Suu Kyi's speeches without having to find another link with another speech. :) love their speeches, such powerful speeches on women. Although Atwoods is the best. :D

But sedat isn't too bad. I admire his push for peace. I could relate that and Suu Kyi.

... The problem I find with English essays is that i have too much to wirte and I have nowhere to start.

---
So in Drama we had to hand in a 300+ word piece about why we want to perform the piece we want to perform. 

Basically you have to crap about stuff.

Just thought I'd show you what I wrote and what I mean.  

-----
Student: Alysha Mah
Individual project type: Monologue
Title of project: Edith Piaf from Songs for Nobodies

1.      Whyyou choose this particular project?

On Sheet Answer: I chose to perform a monologue because I really like performing. I find that performing allows me to express personal thoughts and emotions. Performing is alsoa great outlet for my creativity and stress, a real benefit to any HSC student. 

I took along time to decide on any particular piece, as I was struggling to find a piece I really identified with. When I went to watch Songs for nobodies I was really moved by the Piaf section, as I havealways held a great admiration for Piaf as a vocalist. 

The monologueI chose is particularly unique as it involves singing as part of the performance.I have a great love for musical performance. Thus I felt that by finding apiece that combines both dramatic and musical performance was something that I greatly desired to perform.

What I was actually thinking: Originally, I wanted to not perfom at all. I wanted to send in written work on a costume design concept. I was really excited about it. But I couldn’t get my costume design concept right. I kept getting shut down. Then I got so fed up with it I burnt it all and went to do monologue. I chose a monologue with song in it because I would stand out. That’s it.

2.      Whatare your strengths in that field?

On Sheet Answer: In terms of the musical aspect of my individual project, I have studied music ever since I was six years old. I have performed music in concerts, including in bands, piano recitals, and vocal performances since I was seven. In terms of vocal performances, I also have experience in the area, composing my own pieces and performing at school concerts, church services, and gigs. I have also won singing competitions. 

In terms ofthe monologue itself, I have a reasonable ability to maintain a British accent,which is what is called for in the monologue. It also requires transformational acting, which I have experience in due to previous performances.

What i was actually thinking: I think I can sing. Gigs basically mean performing at relative's weddings and birthday parties. Singing competition was in 4th grade where i came first in a talent contest. And the British accent is the only one I can maintain for long enough, other than “stupid bitchy American girl” accent. 

3.      Howyou are preparing that project?

On Sheet Answer:I am preparing for the project by watching English television shows to studydifferent English accents. I am also going to a vocal tutor to attempt to trainmy voice as to properly imitate Edith Piaf’s singing style.

What I was actually thinking: LOL WHAT PREPARATION? I've read the script once, talked to a friend who teaches music who randomly meets up with at church, and watch a lot of Doctor Who. 

DOCTOR WHO IS TEH GREATEST!!!!!

GET IT? CAUSE THE DOCTOR HAS TWO HEARTS???? HAHAHAHAHAHA.

Monday, May 14, 2012

woof.

So I've been in bed sick for the past few days. I'll be back at school tomorrow. But I feel bad because I missed my ext1 tutorial work. Shame on you Alysha.

On Friday we went to the Ruse prefect afternoon tea thing, which was really cool. :) They did an amazing job of organising everything. Was pretty cool. Congrats to the Ruse prefects for the organising that amazing stuff.

---

OH AND I GOT MY PHONE BACK!!!!!!!!!!

I think it was Miss Sweeney. She's always been a hero to me, such a passionate and brilliant teacher of english, but now I think she's actually a hero.

---

Started cram reading The Mosquito Coast while in bed sick, so I've been thinking a lot about it. It's really way more of an interesting ext1 text than The Island in my opinion. You can fight me if you want.

But really, the personality of Allie, I dunno whether he annoys me or inspires me.

He's stubborn, a hard worker, MASSIVELY opinionated, cynical, smart, talks well, and positively full of himself.

I guess he's a bit like me, which says a lot.

But then again, he hates religion, is massively close minded, willing to kill for his cause, and really show-offy to the point of insufferablilty.

I really hope I'm not like that.

Maybe I am and I refuse to see it.

Haha.

At any rate, back to school tomorrow.

---

Oh.

Also, I FINALLY DROPPED CHEM!!!!!!!!!

HAHAHAHAHA I'M SO HAPPY. IT'S GONE! GONE!!! NO MORE CHEM! 11 UNITS!

I honestly feel so much freer. AND SO EXCITED ABOUT FREE PERIODS.

They make me feel warm and fuzzy inside.

I love free periods. They're like cats. Or warm chocoate chip cookies. Or hugs from miss mac. Or reading Harry Potter. Or watching Disney Movies. Or love letters from anons. Not that I've had many of those. Or any of those. But that's what I'd imagine they'd feel like. Although fuzzy wuzzys/gradelove is kinda similar.

Actually, I'm imagining what free periods will feel like. I haven't exactly had one yet.

I guess thinking of free periods is like all of the above.

I look forward to free periods. Although all I probably will be doing is sleeping throughout. Or working on english. Or math. Or talking. Or eating. haha.

---

My mum is really starting to not want me to go to Relay for Life. I dunno how to convince her otherwise. I'm worried. I really wanted to go.

---



Also, shout out to Shelley. I don't think you're a creepy person at all. In fact, I think you're quite awesome. Thank you for taking time out of your precious study time to bother reading this. haha.

Here's some Doctor Who just for you.

This is pretty much how I've been, sick at home.



BYE GUYS.