hello there.

HOLIDAYS!!!!!!!!!!!!~~~~~~~~~~~

Basking in the post-exam happy bubble :D

Not that i think i did very well. but hahaha... i don't care right now.

tea... ho ho ho...

Been going out a fair bit, so lots of photos... naha...

It was my grandma's eightieth birthday on the weekend before my last exam :D

So my aunts came down from Vancouver for the two weeks during my exam period. It was pretty cool, there was so much going out to eat food or eating crazy amounts of awesome food at home because they didn't want to go out.

And I missed out on 3 more outings haha. Cause i had to study T.T

Thursday. Last exam day.

SO HAPPY TO HAVE FINISHED.

Went out to get ramen for dinner in the city at Ippudo with ML and NJ. I think she had just come back from Melbourne! :D

The ramen was super tasty! I really like ramen haha... I think this was like, specialty ramen. It took ramen to the NEXT LEVEL. RAMEN UPGRADED.

The wierd rice thing came with extra nori and ginger to be put in like halfway to "change the flavour of the meal and make it a more refreshing experience." the rice was to be put in after the noodles were finished.

I asked ML what he thought and he was like "it just tastes like more ginger now." haha what a cutie. 

Saw KL in the city when coming back. He was very drunk. First time talking to a drunk person. 

I think it was a rather... enlightening experience. 

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Friday

Did some last minute pack up for my prep to move out. Then watched a couple of episodes of High School of the Dead before I got side tracked. 

I think it was actually pretty scary sometimes. Other than that, boob physics of the show is kinda ridiculous. :D

Day didn't exactly go as hoped the day before, but it still went a little along the way? 

I guess I can't help myself sometimes. 

Towards the end, when i got kinda sleepy and cold and just crawled in bed; i think that was the nicest bit :3

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Saturday 

After work met up with the girls for dinner and dessert at towers! So happy to see everyone again :'D Got all emotional and everything nahaha. 

When I came back home, watched a late night movie with my mum and sister called Blindness (imdb link here)

I think it really made me question what would I do if I was in that situation. I kinda wish i had seen it in year 11 and used it for a related text of something, I dunno what. Maybe human condition. I dunno.

It's really dark though. Super dark. But it has a lighter finish.

I really want to read the book now.

If I was stuck with no sight in the soceity/kingdom of the blind, would i become like the crazy guys? With no morals and live for selfish pleasure at the expense of others? Would I try to oppose injustice, or would I buckle under and ensure I don't create opposition? 

I dunno. It's hard to think.

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Sunday & Today

I really feel its the beginning of the hols. Lazy days that stretch out into nothing. I kinda did laundry today, and going through a wardrobe cleanse. i.e throwing out garbage bags full of clothes in the donation bins :D

Its taking a while to decide what I want to keep and what I want to get rid of.

Just finished reading Jodi Picoult's My Sister's Keeper and Sam Hawksmoor's The Repossession.

My sister's keeper made me cry when i was reading it, and cry again when i was explaining it to my sister...

lol.

But yeah holiday party atmosphere :D

PARTY LIKE THE DOCTOR!!!!!!!

Coolest snap chat drawing ever.

Also I'm totally in love with minions. Minions are 2nd on the list of things i want but can't have. Luckily McDonalds decided I could have a toy one.

It was really weird buying this, cause i kid you not, when the guy came out and realised this tall fat asian girl wanted the happy meal, he kinda just looked bemused and told me to enjoy the toy. :p

I want ALL THE MINION TOYS.

K bai :D

accounting

welp, i'm mad at myself about it.

I didn't time manage very well. ergh. i know that im going to be mad with whatever i get, cause i could have done better.

i am so very very screwed for stats. not even funny.

also, i have fallen in love.

a one true love.

a one shoe love.

I know, its terribly Asian, but it's adorable! the 8cm wedge, the black, the possibility for cosplay yet everyday functionality of it... *swoon*

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yesterday i went to rice auditions, to audition little kiddies who want to rice.

Although it was more like me having fun ahahahahha.

i cannot dance for the life of me.

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ok i gotta go back to cramming.

lol jokes what is study?

ITS SO TERRIBLY COLD I HATE WINTER

I hope i don't get sick... :(

I HATE PERDISCO.

I regret leaving this till last minute.

Havan't even had the heart to start stats, cause i don't even know where to begin...

Luckily Jin can help me work out how to use peridisco, or i would be like worse than fail.

Have been to his house far too many times recently, his mum probably dislikes me... ahahaha...

It's always very... intense. doogum doogum.

Uni is more intense, probably because end of sem. ahaha.

I wish i could have gone to med revue. :(

Also, retarded dreams lately. :(

wibbly wobbly timey wimey (picture heavy)

(Didn't publish this yestrday, so tacking today at the bottom aha...)

Also this is very experimental cause I'm using my phone and the updated blogger app that allows photos! So let's see what happens eh? :D

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THURSDAY - Pop up store and Newtown madness.

(8:30am)

Sitting at the bus stop in costume watching the bus go by.

I think I might be late to the opening, which means I woke up early all excitedly and put on costume possibly for no reason. 

Oh well.

As I sit here, I realise I have an itchy spot on my foot. But I'm wearing boots so I can't scratch it.

#firstworldproblems

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(3:00pm)

Ah it was so worth skipping lectures to go :D

The line was really long, and we got there like exactly 5 minutes before the opening. Was hoping to get there earlier, but I wasn't willing to go alone AHAHA...

But it was pretty crazy! The line went like at least 5 meters back from the door when we got there and it didn't stop growing. I swear, the line wa longer after we left than before we got in haha. 

They only allowed a limited number of people inside the store at a time, so we had to wait another like hour and a half before we could go in.

They gave us chocolate TARDIS cake! (It was super tasty too.)

But there were some pretty cool people in line with pretty cool costumes, so it was pretty cool talking to fellow whovians. 

I think the coolest was the weeping angel outfit.

She was pretty freaky. 

I ended up buying two tshirts (one for me and one for a present) and a baker scarf :D

The scarf was the equivalent of two tshirts :( super expensive!

But whatever. #noregrets.

Went exploring with Jin after. Newtown seems to be a hipster paradise. Everything is "antique" or "unique" or "vintage" or "handmade Eco-friendly" or "recycled" or "reimagined"

They have the coolest stuff.

We stumbled into this amazing antiques store which no joke had an entire wall of antique cameras.

They also remade old vintage equipment. Like this old tv turned mirror.

I wish I was filthy rich, because I could buy almost everything in Newtown. 

My entire house would look like it's from the 1940s if I had a choice. 

We also ate Oporto (yummy) and had a sleepy bus ride home :) 

Oh someone rang the doorbell.

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8:00pm

It was the postman with a package. He brought my stockings ehehe.

I think I'm a bit too addicted to snapchat. Also snapchat is not entirely healthy. 

My favourite snaps & amazing drawing abilities (I know screen shotting, haha)

Hehe

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FRIDAY - econ exam and baby sitting

Well, exam was terrible. 

The baby sitting bit was quite fun though :) 

Although I have to say, putting the kids to sleep made me very sleepy too :p even though it was like 8:30 HAHA. 

Looking forward to parties and fun :D 

Goodnight :)

hggggggggggggggnh.

Walking back while sun setting :)

Last few days...

I bought more stuff at op shop again. $5 patterned dress and $5 chambray shirt :)

The problem with buying regularly at an op-shop is that I now have a desire for EVERYTHING I BUY to be around op-shop prices.

Like i can't buy a nice $50-now-$30 dress without thinking "but i could get a dress from vinnies for less..."

op-shop hazard

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Accounting was terrible.

That's all I have to say.

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Is anyone else extremely confused about the timetables? I'm not sure what I'm supposed to book for next semester. :/

We don't chose the subject's we've already completed right? But you know how accounting is part 1A, does that mean there's a part 1B? I'm very confused.

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Today I saw a bunch of cool baulko people, JL, MS, DL, DM, and we played Saboteur.

Was possibly the coolest break I've had in uni.

Thanks guys :)

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I got snapchat, and it's actually kind of fun :) But i'm still quite addicted to gifboom. My sister saw me use i and said it was like a moving version of instagram without the insane amount of people.

She has lots of followers, she's just too pretty.

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Made kimchi soup for dinner, because it's simply TOO COLD.

Twas actually quite nice, despite roomies's reservations at spicy tolerance, they managed to eat quite alot. :)

Also I did laundry, but the clothes didn't dry on time because it was too cold and now they're hanging on the banisters.
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DOCTOR WHO SHOP OPENING UP SOON OMFG HAVE TO GO ON THURSDAY I HAVE COSTUME ORGANISED YES YES YES.

All i neeed is a fez and i'm good.

I HAVE MY BOW TIE. I MUST WIN.

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Friday was very very weird.

If I were to put it metaphorically, everyone walks around with a tightly sealed box of secrets. And the box has many many many layers. And I feel that most people don't ever touch each others boxes. It's only if people chose to share them. And generally, I think that most people won't ever reach the centre of other people's boxes, the final tightly locked box that holds secrets people don't like to admit to themselves.

My box was accessed.

It was stupid of me, and i think i should have seen it coming earlier, but there's no going back now. The box is open and on display and now i'm not sure how to define the relationship/friendship anymore.

Most relationships have like barriers. A limit to how connected and how much you understand about someone. There are things that, despite all the time and closeness you share with someone, you'll never find out about them unless they choose to share it with you.

There was no choice in this. It just happened.

And I would take it back in a heartbeat, if just to go back to a semi-normal stasis of relationship.

I don't really now how to approach this anymore.

When you know so much about someone, where is the line? The barriers are down and I'm not sure if i feel comfortable being so exposed. It's scary. And I don't know where this is going to lead.

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In CBS today we were talking about what Christian relationships should be (Ephesians 5:22 - 6:9) and it personally made me wonder about Christianity and feminism.

Like i don't think radical feminism and Christianity can harmonize.

Because women are called to 'submit in everything' towards their husband, just as the church is supposed to submit to Christ. And thus we are meant to help them, support them, love them and give ourselves to them.

But then again, men are supposed to love women 'as Christ loved the church.' So 'he might sanctify her, having cleansed her by the washing of water with the word, so that he might present the church to himself in splendor, without spot or wrinkle or any such thing, that she might be holy and without blemish.' 

So it's not meant to be an exploitive relationship. Guys are supposed to lead women, but also to love and protect them, guard them and keep them holy. They wouldn't hurt them or exploit them or abuse them. And women and supposed to follow and support. But they're supposed ultimately make the Christian walk together. 

I think it's actually beautiful.

People consider me somewhat feminist, but really I only think that men and women should be treated equally, with respect and fairness. We have our differences and it's not like men and women are interchangeable  but it also doesn't mean that women are inferior to men.

But i think that you can't be a radical feminist and be Christian.

Maybe an equalist?

aha that just makes me think of avatar.

sorry for the rant >,<

kthnxbai.

Connect and Study Cram.

Stats exam tomorrow! Spent like (notevenkidding) 5 hours in Gloria Jeans today cramming for stats before Connect Leaders meeting.

I bought a coffee and a tea, trying to reduce caffeine levels... ahahaha....

not working... lol

I think it was fairly productive... ahaha....

before connect, i went and ate pizza with ML, cause he's doing connect too. What a cool guy.

I'm so unhealthy HAHAHA.

EXAMS TOMORROW OMIGOSH
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I'm concerned im going to fail. ahahahaha.

Im too tired to study anymore... i think i just want to go to bed...

Also cause of the connect train and plan (which brought back baulko iscf memories tbh, haha kenny), i missed the latest ep of doctor who!

So sad.

Though i regret nothing.

I'm going to defs go to docsoc screening tomorrow.

I've put attending on it a couple of times, but i've never actually been, shhhhhhhhhhhhh LOL.

But tomorrow defs going, bringing by newly addicted friend along who has now caught up. (HAHA JIN)

Church was nice today :) We did Ecclesiastes and 1 Corinthians, which is what i'v been doing in my quiet times, so i had that fun "omigosh i know what he's talking about because i'm going over that now and now i understand EVERYTHING" moment ahahaha.

 Also, strangely, conversations in hash tag are kind of fun.

deep end

I tried to start my stats assignment today, but I had no idea what I was supposed to even begin with.

You know you are going to do badly when you dont even know what the question is asking.

I was all "yeah, tote going to get on top of my assignments, i can totes do this!"

and then i realised i had NO CLUE what i was doing.

I think i need to dedicate my ANZAC holiday completely to stats.

Until then, accounting cram aha...

(Alysha, shame on you, stats in tute exam is next week monday. you're going to have a bad time)

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How AMAZEBALLS was Doctor Who ep this week? fuar i loved hide!

Best Ghost Love story every. ^^

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I've always thought that Panty and Stocking were a messed up adults version of the Powerpuff girls, and apparently someone else did too, because i found this cross over illustration.

Haha. Can you see Johnny Bravo is the male on the cover of Panty's magazine?


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Recently, a church friend has been very encouraging. I'm surprised, because since this year I've talked to him like maybe 4 times in total. (?) His love and passion for God is very inspiring. I hope I can be that enthusiastic in everything i do as well. He's actually kind of amazing. I would never tell him that though.

My sister was somewhat fan-girling him the other day, telling me about his story and how he came to faith in Jesus.

I can somewhat understand his passion after that.

I find that, in some areas of my life, there are people that i talk to that just make me feel motivated to do certain things. Talking to my cousin makes me motivated to learn Japanese and Chinese and Latin and French and Spanish and every other language in the world, talking to my sister motivates me to be a more caring and compassionate person, reading some people's blogs make me feel i need to work harder or be more creative, and talking to others make me feel like i want to be more of a lamp post for christ.

I feel very blessed to know so many amazing people :)

I have to work harder, haha.

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(Long Christian passage, sorry atheists. But I hope you read it anyway, because this is important to me.)

I was asked to help lead Rice choir, and I feel that's somewhat a scary thing.

Because for me to lead something this big, it's a very big deal.

Not only because I know it'll be amazingly fun, I'm worried that i won't do it for the right reasons.

What if i just sing because i want to perform? But it's not a performance, it's about praise.

And i don't know if i can lead something one hundred percent thinking about praise.

And im not even including the extra work shifts and Connect leadership and INSANE STUDY.

But it's been in my mind, exciting my core, every minute since I was asked.

I remember at KYCK, whilst in the mosh pit singing praises, I felt that it was the most amazing experience, being able to sing.

And it felt amazing, because usually when i sing i care so much about how i sound, and i concentrate on every little thing.

But at that moment, when i swear i couldn't hear my voice in the massive crowd that were all jumping and singing praises, i didn't care what i sounded like.

And i knew that i wasn't singing like i normally do, because at that moment i was singing praise with all my heart. I felt moved. It felt spiritual.

Like I was doing something that was unlocked inside me, like i had found something that i had never found before.

I felt drained after the song, even though i knew no one could hear me in the crowd, I swear that I had just done THE MOST amazing performance of my life.

It was intoxicating.

People at my church call it one of my spiritual gifts, a gift i should be using for God. A voice that only unleashes when i sing praises.

And I know that in 1 Peter 4:10-11, it says:

¹⁰ Each of you should use whatever gift you have received to serve others, as faithful stewards of God’s grace in its various forms. ¹¹ If anyone speaks, they should do so as one who speaks the very words of God. If anyone serves, they should do so with the strength God provides, so that in all things God may be praised through Jesus Christ. To him be the glory and the power for ever and ever. Amen.

Every gift we have should be used to its fullest in him, for him

Yet to me, my gift is something that i feel i can get swept up in self-adulation with.

I know that my voice is something I am proud of. It's always been that way. Music is something i strongly connect to, and applause is something ive become addicted to since 6years old.

So something like singing at Rice, with thousand of youth in a concert hall, leading a choir and singing on a stage?

The very idea makes me quiver with excitement.

But im not sure if it's because i want to sing praises with thousands of people, and whip them up into that blissful state where you feel as if God is there with you, or if i want to sing in front of thousands of people to let them hear my voice.

Terrifying.

Ironically, I have terrible stage fright as well.

But that's irrelevent at Christian performances for me.

I suppose i never really care what the service thinks about my playing ability, because I'm trying to make the best worship experience for them through it.

Ultimately it's all for God, so who knows really...

I suppose if I pray about it, an answer will come eventually.

kthnxbai <3

argh

I haven't done my accounting quiz and it's due tomorrow. Nor have i started using peridisco.

Alysha can you please be more organised??

I tried to book a study room for tomorrow at uni library and i couldn't get anywhere at time later than 10 and earlier than 6 :(

i booked next week room though. a week in advance.

i just drank like almost a litres worth of coffee in an effort to stay awake today.

I don't think i did very well on the exam.

Today i fell asleep on the bus, and woke up halfway to wolli creek. I had to get off and catch another bus, luckily it came in 15 minutes instead of 30...

soba, steamed fish, stir fried vegetables and miso soup with shiitake mushrooms and tofu for dinner...

i felt good.

i actually like cooking. it's kinda relaxing. though time consuming.

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i find that red lipstick automatically makes you feel sexier. If you're feeling down, red lipstick is definitely a way to perk up. Especially if it's the hallucination-inducing-kind like river song's ahaha.

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went to sleep this morning at 3am, so when i woke up I was like, what time did i sleep in to, and when i checked the time, it said 6:30. My sleep beffudled mind was like "OMFG IT'S 6:30PM YOU SLEPT THROUGH YOUR EXAM!!"

and then i was like WAIIIIT. IT'S AM. IVE HAD LESS THAN 3HOURS SLEPT WHAT THE HELL AM I UP FOR.

so i went to sleep and then woke up at 11.

I missed my stats lecture and econ lecture. =="

we should be getting econ results back tomorrow :/

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walking to uni today i looked up and happened to notice a hanging herb garden with lanterns.

I want one.

(i felt somewhat creepy and stalkerish taking this photo ahaha....)

kthnxbai (L)

Welp.

(I never liked the term welp but it gets used a lot and it seemed appropriate. I thought I posted this last night but turns out I saved it as a draft instead...)

Wednesday 17th
Exam tomorrow! I'm not going to do well, I don't really understand matrix rules.

I'm not Neo UNSW. I'm sorry.

Today I had to take my siblings to Chatswood for a dental appointment. I took them to Korean BBQ for lunch before the dentist ^^

And before you think it's cause I was being nice, it was purely because I've wanted to eat BBQ for a while, but it's sad for anyone to eat BBQ alone. Also you can only get one kind of dish. Also my sister speaks Korean.

(We didn't take photos of the BBQ cause we were too busy stuffing our faces nahahaha)

I want to eat ramen at a ramen store next :3 but I have to have more money first. Haha.

Walked around Chatswood for a while before catching a train home. Found a Korean grocery which had a crazy collection of instant noodles. Ill definitely be going back there :D

I bought 3 emergency lunch cup noodle flavours I think I've never seen before, and know I've definitely never tried before.

Also found a vinnies that was closing down, so I bought a bunch of stuff for $25.

Shoes were most expensive ahahaha...

I think I have a slight shoe addiction. Every time I go to any second hand store I almost always buy a pair of heels. Almost always.

Also I hate how buses to my place come so infrequently. And all 3 come around the same time too. Can't they space it out a little better? :(

But this is probably because I'm used to living on a metro line, so a bus that comes every 30 minutes during peak hour and every hour off it is incredibly frustrating.

I love metrobuses (y)

Never thought I'd ever say I love a public transport line, but there you go.


Coming back on the bus i realised that i got on the wrong bus, cause one bus stops halfway :( so i had to wait another 30mintues in the dark, and the cold (and the diamonds. lol jks no diamonds)

But i was sitting on the bus banister side ting cause when i got on there was no room, and the bar made me feel like i was on a kids rollercoaster ahaha....

When I got home I put groceries away, and my roomies had already eaten, so I made packet instant noodles!

And I was so hungry, I ended up singing about how hungry I was while I was making instant noodles.

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The instant noodle song in cmaj.

I'm so hungry
I want noodles
Instant noodles
Too bad it's not instant
More like 3 minute noodles

Nooooodles are Taaaaaaasty
I hate maccas but I love fast food
FAAAAST NOODLES.
3 MINUTE NOOOOODLES!!

(Hum whilst inserting the occasional noodles and/or Hungus, hungry, yummy, shut up stomach etc until noodles are cooked)

*whilst pouring into bowl*

Everybody loves noodles!
Itadakimasu!

*eat furiously*

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Really don't want to study tonight. But I think I'm going to not do so well, so ill probably stay up late and try and develop some kind of understanding haha...

MY ASOS JUMPER CAME!!! IMSOSUPERHAPPY! IT SAYS BITE ME AHAHAHA.

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Roomies and I were sitting round the table studying when we started talking about clothing then sized then weight then boobs and one thing lead to another and on a high of caffiene and laughter we didn't stop rollinng around on the floor in hysterics for about 30 minutes.

People say going into a house with randoms can be kinda crap, but i love it so far :)

kthnxbai

KYCK - Night 1

Using my phone to blog feels strange. But I didn't bring my laptop to camp so I suppose I have to.

Economics exam wasn't too bad... Though it wasn't the first time I've ever sat an exam I didn't feel completely prepared for, it was the first time that my hand was shaking as I answered the question.

Though that could have been for other reasons...

What was an awks part of the day, a guy from BSOC cruise that I danced with on the night thinking if never see him again is in my tute. I swear I had never seen him before, because I usually sit with friends... But because it was an exam we got mixed around.

Guess where the tutor made me sit?

Haha.

I really really really hope he didn't recognise me.

I look different with make up on but not that different.

I must make sure I ALWAYS wear glasses to that econ tute, in an attempt to look different.

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KYCK talk was amazing :D

It really made me think so much.

(Sorry to all the non-Christians out there, but ima gonna talk about it :3)

Our God is the God of love, who can love perfectly with pure and perfect intention. And to receive his perfect love, all we have to do is confess our sins. If we claim we have no sin, we are denying God and his reason for sending Christ.

But we don't confess our sins completely. We make excuses. Even when we apologise, we attempt to justify WHY we did that action. We don't confess our sins and admit to our wrong doings.

Intense. The talk made me think about what Christian belief is truly about :)

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In my cabin, it's cute to hear the girls talking about school life. And boys and girls and relationships and stuff :) so cute

I'm getting tired...

kthnxbai

economics :(

WHILE I WAS PRINTING MY ECON HW TODAY, THIS GUY WAS LIKE 'OH HEY IT'S YOU ALYSHA.' AND THEN HE LOOKED AT MY CLOTHES. LIKE HEAD UP, DOWN, UP AND SMIRKED.

AND I WAS LIKE, PLEASE STOP JUDGING MY CLOTHES. I LIKE WHAT I WEAR.

ALTHOUGH TO HIS FACE I WAS JUST LIKE 'HAHA WHAT?'

AND HE'S LIKE '... NOTHING. I JUST HAVEN'T SEEN YOU IN A WHILE...'

BUT MY CLOTHES! YOUR FACE HAS JUDGEMENT WRITTEN ALL OVER IT!

D:


Currently at Uni library with NS. I should be studying but I'm not.

Exam is in 2 hours.

haha.

I had coffee from that cart that everyone speaks of glowingly.

It was nice :D

Not so nice that it deserves endless rants.

But nice.

kthnxbai